Actually I lied. I have had zero revelations. I just hate the idea of new years resolutions.
Sorry I have MIA for ages. We are going into our 3rd month of renovations with 90% off my clothes in storage and one pair of winter boots I have been all out of inspiration. We have been living in multiple Air BNB’s for the last 3 months. Between demolition and trips to hardware stores and Christmas life has been very hectic.
We did manage to throw an awesome NYE bash this year with beautiful views over the city and great friends. New years Eve has always been important to me. I believe stupidly that it will set the tone for the following year. I love the idea of new beginnings. I actually performed a sage ceremony for all my guests. In an effort to clear away negative energy and cleanse for the new year ahead.
Like I said I am not one for resolutions but I do want to kind of try to be a better person. Bad habits are kind of my middle name, but here is 5 things I would like to kind of try to get better at. #supercommited
I am turning mother freakin 40 this year and the thought in general is so crazy to me because I don’t feel like adult pretty much every day of my life. I have no desire to grow up – so we can cross that off the list. What I do want to do is to embrace ageing and the beauty of getting older. Instead of googling botox I would like to like my wrinkles and lines on my face of a well-loved life. I want to look wiser and earthier and embrace getting older instead of freaking out and wanting to skin a 20 year old.
I want to slay dragons. I want to face more of my fears in life instead of practising my usual total avoidance. I would like to feel fearless and proud of myself much more. I want to empower myself. With baby steps of course.
Exercise. This is such a New Year cliché but if you have ever met me I am super undisciplined. I hate cardio soooo much. In fact I hate all kinds of intentional exercise. But I also hate not fitting into my jeans but not as much as i hate exercise. With my health anxiety I have a complicated attitude towards my body. I think my body can turn on me in any second and what I do want to change is to start taking control of my body and loving it and taking care of it. Mastering it. Making my body work for me and not against me both physically and mentally.
Be more positive. I can be very catastrophic and dramatic. I anticipate natural disaster and zombie apocalypses. I worry too much. It’s so much easier for me to see the worst case scenario before I allow myself to think just maybe it may just all work out incredibly. I guess psychologically it’s perhaps a self protective mechanism, But positivity feels way better than negativity. I am all about those vibes and I want me some good not bad ones.
Practise some radical self-love. I am not sure what that looks like. Or even what that fully means, I think maybe I have to get naked and run through a forest. But I am down for that too.
Wish me a world full of luck. I maybe probably 100% need it.